Hey people! I hope you all are fine and enjoying your lives and if anyone is facing any difficulty, remember this too shall pass. Okay. So I have been wanting to dedicate a blog to the people who have made my life worth living but couldn’t find words to describe their goodness therefore we are just gonna go with the ordinary vocabulary I know.

Since my college, I have met some great people. My college friends and teachers were really co-operative and motivating and they helped me when my life was at it’s lowest ebb. But the star of the show are definitely my university fellows. Such amazing human beings they are. The day I entered University I had zero expectations. I told myself that I might not meet even a single good person but I gotta stay there no matter what. However, to my surprise I met some of the best people of my life. The way they respect me, their behavior, their love and most importantly their acceptance is just out of this world. They have made me realize that I have the right to live, right to laugh, right to be a part of this society. It wrenches my heart when I see them treating me this way, knowing I can’t do anything for them except praying, and on the other hand I have my “relatives” always trying to bring me down. They revive my believe in humanity. I can surely say such people make world a place to live. I wish I could name them but they are so many in number that I can’t do that😂. I respect them and I wish to stay with them forever. Have a great week everyone!❤❤

Hey everyone! I know I am the most inconsistent blogger anyone might have ever seen, but it is how it is, can’t do anything about that. Anyways this blog is not about my clumsy self. This is a very special one and I hope it turns out the way I want it to.

Three years ago on this day I entered a very weird phase of my life. Irrespective of my physical condition, I am gonna talk about how I changed as a person. I was just like any other ordinary girl with almost no goals in life. My education meant almost nothing to me. I was living in a fantasy world where everything was gold and glittery. But this phase grabbed me out of that imaginary world and exposed me to the reality, which wasn’t really good I must say but it is definitely worth being realistic. I used to believe that everyone around me is sincere with me and they love me and I mean a lot to them etc. but it was not quite like that.

My disability changed me physically but people’s behaviour changed me emotionally. Initially everything was pretty bearable because to be honest I felt like this is just a temporary illness and probably I will be fine after sometime but to my surprise God had planned something else😑. I was a complete different person which I realized after some time but they realized it instantly and therefore they distanced themselves from me. They felt embarrassed walking next to me, they had no time to hear about how miserable I felt, they didn’t care how it felt to be left out. There were times when I used to sit on a sofa for hours, alone and frustrated, thinking WHY ME? WHY GOD DECIDED TO MAKE ME SUFFER? WHY IS GOD BEING MEAN TO ME? or at times I used to get so irritated ending up saying IS THERE ANY GOD FOR REAL?. That painful phase lasted for quite a bit until I got tired and then I started searching answers to my questions. The first thing that I found out was that there is DEFINITELY A GOD😂. And He had planned all of this because GOD GIVES HIS TOUGHEST BATTLES TO HIS STRONGEST SOLDIERS. Yeah pretty embarrassed I was that such uncultured mite I am, GOD is giving me a chance to be different, to be unique and here I am crying like an idiot😑, disappointing I know. So after GOD taught me some good lessons, I started working on my own self. I thought why I want to be with people who don’t want to be with me, and therefore I learnt to live alone😏, and it feels so good😂. I made new friends in the form of books and I made the greatest friend anyone would ever want GOD who listens to my nonstop venting🌝. The most difficult thing to accept was that I am not able to do certain things which took a lot of time, prayers and mental breakdowns but at last I accepted that I was different and it made things much easier for me.😇

I am a complete different person then I was three years ago and I don’t know if I like this version of myself more than the previous one but One thing I am sure about is that I am a more stronger, motivated, determined and emotionally independent person. And most importantly I AM NOT GOING DOWN WITHOUT A FIGHT😉.

Happy New Year Guys💛. May this year be a glorious one that rewards all your future endeavours with success.😇 I have not been able to write lately partly because I was busy and partly because I was trying to escape from the truths of my life. I am going through such a dangerous phase currently where writing down my feelings will break me down. I think writing reveals all my secrets and I didn’t wanted to disclose anything. I have been trying so hard not to reveal my feelings to anyone but now as my last resort I am doing this. There is a weird emptiness in my heart, in my mind. I am not being able to talk to my God and this is my worst fear. I don’t know what I have done wrong. I don’t know why I am not being able to communicate with Him. I am not being able to focus on anything in my life especially my studies. I have been trying to be happy and to hide the darkness in my heart. I don’t know why I am doing this to myself. And I don’t even know what I have written but it’s just how I feel right now. Broken💔. I hope the whole year is not like the beginning.❤

Little joys can bring so much happiness into your life and realizing this can bring so much satisfaction. I am so satisfied with myself right now. I am so relieved. I have started to live for myself and enjoy every little thing around me, I have distanced myself from whatever stressed me. This is such a nice feeling. I no longer feel in competition with someone. I no longer feel that I have to be perfect to be in someone’s life and to be around someone. I am happy to know that there are many other people with “petty issues”😂 like me. It is a very short blog but just wanted to write down my feelings.💞

This week has been really difficult for me in terms of coping with the problems of “normal world”. I have felt useless, misfit for this world at so many points. I felt like I don’t belong to this place or maybe I still feel like. This phase is so difficult for me because I have cried so many times and I know whenever you cry, you become worthless. People stop paying attention towards you. Their behaviours just change but you know what I have realized it just should not matter. People should do hell with their behaviour. If I can fight with such mighty problems in my life, I can live without them😏. The phase that I just went through though very hard but taught me many lessons. And the best part is I am not stopping😂. I am and will keep fighting to make this world a better place for all my misfit army out there. It feels so nice to write, it feels like I am talking to someone dear.💛

I am very happy today because I have achieved something I have been wanting for so long, that is emotional independence. Though there is still a long way to go but at least I have started this journey. I used to depend on people a lot physically as well as emotionally. I can’t control my physical dependence but I can control my emotions. It really hurts me when people come in my life, make me fall for them and when I start depending on them emotionally to the extent where my Happiness is because of them, they leave. They find new people. It just breaks my heart on how mean people can get. And I know they aren’t being mean because they have the right to enjoy their lives and Its just my fault to depend on people this much. But now I have realized that I shouldn’t be depending on any one for my Happiness. I should enjoy my Life. I have so many reasons to be happy, why would I want to be around that ONE SPECIFIC PERSON. So I have decided to be happy for myself, to cheer up myself. All this change in me happened because someone told me YOU ARE BRAVE! And that someone really matters. Woah! That was nice writing my feelings down. Have a good week Everyone!💞💞💞

Hey Everyone!! Its me…I am back. I have been inactive for a while now that is because I was not feeling motivated myself and I just didn’t feel comfortable in writing motivational blogs when I myself was lacking all of the motivation. But now I feel much better because of many people who helped me cope with that phase of depression. I used to believe that you don’t need anyone in your life to help you with all the depression, anxiety and stress that anyone goes through but now I feel like you do😂…that’s because it feels so nice to be able to talk to someone, tell them about your problems and even cry in front of them and the best part is they won’t judge you. I am glad for having such amazing people in my life. Also I have been very busy with my university stuff. It is kind of hectic no matter how much you think it is not. But whatever the case is I am happy I am back and I will be writing my heart out. And also I hope everyone is doing great..Have a great week ahead.💞💞💞

I always had this weird attraction towards fields that added some kind of an abbreviation with your name for example Dr, Adv etc. And this is ONE of the reasons why I chose to become a lawyer so that ADVOCATE, BARRISTER, JUSTICE gets added to my name. I don’t know if I will ever be able to practice law because of the inaccessibility of the courts and stuff but I do plan on becoming a judge one day and before you think what I am going to do right after completing my degree, I have a long list of small jobs that will help me to be financially independent. Well besides this I also want to own a small business. And along with that I really like blogging and deep inside I am also planning to write a book, I also wish to be a motivational speaker one day. So what I am trying to say is that there is a lot I want to do but I am a little scared that what if my divided attention leads to failure in all aspects. I don’t know but I am going to try my level best to do all I want to do because we only live once, so we should enjoy every bit of this life and do whatever we want to do. So what about you guys??? Do you also plan on doing several things at the same time??? Have a great week ahead everyone ❤❤

I never thought that once my University begins, I will get this busy and not get time to write but finally I got some time to talk to you about my experience at the University. Well it has been a different experience because I have never been to such crowded and huge institution before so at first I didn’t really liked it but now after sometime I am getting used to it and hopefully it will get even better with time because GOOD THINGS TAKE TIME. The people are no doubt really co-operative. My class fellows are really nice. All in all it is a good and peaceful environment. So while I adjust into the new place I hope you also have a great time my friends.❤❤

I have been really demotivated to write anything but today I have forced myself to write something, hopefully it turns out good. So yesterday I had a chance to meet THE DIRECTOR of THE ACADEMY OF LETTERS PAKISTAN and what a wonderful human being he is. I am not the type of the person to get influenced by anyone that easily but this men impressed me in so many ways that I myself could not believe it. The way he speaks, his personality, his knowledge, his grip on his language and his unending references/examples are just mind blowing. This men gave me a whole different view of life. He introduced to what the purpose of my life should be. This is not easy to make someone change the perspective of their life in just a few hours. He encouraged me to write, write about everything I want to. He opened up new doors to me. The sight of his library made me realize that there is so much more to life. I want to end this on something personal to me which I realized after several bad experiences that no one is your best friend, no one will stand next to you forever, no one will understand your problems and issues, so instead of making people your friends and then end up regretting it, we should make books our best friends. They will always be there for us, they will give us the best advices, they will never betray us and most importantly they will never act selfish. And woah! it turned out to be a pretty good blog I guess. Have a great day ❤❤❤